Friday, January 30, 2009


They told me that the radiation would make me tired, but this is ridiculous.

I'm off the morphine suckers and the OxyContin. I’m down to three Vicodone a day and will start weaning myself from those starting on Monday. My throat is still very sore but getting better. I'd rather have a sore throat than be loaded all day by still taking those drugs. Enough chemicals. Now I’ve just got to get my strength back.

I realize that I've lost 35 pounds and haven't really eaten very much in the last seven weeks, but I have never in my life been this fatigued. My whole being is tired. So I’ll have one little rant; then I'm going to sleep.

I wanted to order one more box of the morphine suckers because if I had them, I wouldn't have to take any more pills. The good thing about the suckers is that you can use one throughout the whole day for pain and not be a vegetable from the opiates in the pills. In the meantime though, my insurance policy changed, and my prescription co-pay went away. The last time I placed an order, I paid fifteen dollars for two boxes. This time without the prescription co-pay, I’d have to pay $691.00... for one box.

This has got to change. And don't look to President Obama or any other politician now or in the future to change it. If we want this to change, it's going to have to come from us.

We, the people. Think about it.

Goodnight... or good afternoon.

And good luck.

(Side note: As much as those suckers really helped me, I refused to pay that money to that pharmaceutical company. A sore throat I can deal with. Greed, I can't.)

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Today was my last radiation session; today was a good day

Yesterday was my last chemo bag and today was my last radiation session. It was brutal, but they tell me it'll work. So for the next six weeks I do nothing but recuperate. Then they’ll do a PT scan and I'm sure it will be clear. I’ve sent an e-mail to my doctor at The Klinik in Germany to fill her in on my situation. She’ll let me know when to come over to The Klinik for treatment for the side effects of the radiation. I know one of the treatments is bathing in water mixed with half a cup to a cup of sea salt and a half a cup to a cup of baking soda. This helps draw the radiation out of your body.

Today was a good day. I saw Farrah and Alana Stewart at the doctors’. Farrah's going to go back to Germany for some treatment, too. And to top off my day, my niece Kate came over to see me. We spent about an hour together. I don't get to see her much, so this was wonderful for me. It's not even six o'clock and I'm exhausted, so I'm going to bed. Goodnight.

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Four more sessions

Four more sessions and I'm done. I don't think it'll get any worse. I can barely swallow, my throat is beyond raw, I weigh 157 and I have never been this tired EVER. In six weeks I'll do a PT scan and all will be clear. Then I think I will be going back to The Klinik for a couple of weeks for treatments to rebuild my trashed immune system and counteract the effects of the radiation.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

The picture of my neck speaks for itself

I'm real tired. A tired I've never felt before. And feeling horribly sick at times along with the tremendous fatigue is no fun.

If you look at the picture of my neck, you’ll see it speaks for itself.

I'm down to 159 pounds. I have six more sessions of radiation and two more chemo sessions. Then, according to my U.S. doctors, I'm done with treatment. My doctor at The Klinik, however, wants me to go there for a couple of weeks so they can treat me for the radiation I've had.

I will blog again this weekend and tell more. Sorry. Too tired.